This week was like hell to me. I was totally exhausted and depressed about everything. I was still adjusting to this new environment and education system. Huge amounts of homework, reading material and notes teared me apart and scattered me into pieces.  They chewed me up and spit me out.  
I stayed up late to review all my notes for the several tests on the nest day, however, I don't think I did them very well. Every time when I clicked the Grade Book section on RenWeb, my hands shivered and my heart palpitated with fear and stress. Some of the grades might be acceptable to others, but they brought a great deal of disappointment to me. These courses were much more challenging than I've thought about. Some people said I'm too pessimistic. As a matter of fact, sometimes optimism is just a big lie. The best way to deal with it is to strive to solve the problems and improve oneself. All these things happened this week reminded me lyrics of a song. "I'm a silhouette, chasing rainbows on my own. The more try to move on, the more I feel alone." I'm going to take a good rest this weekend and be prepared for the next week's study. Cross my finger for myself...