This week was like hell to me. I was totally exhausted and depressed about everything. I was still adjusting to this new environment and education system. Huge amounts of homework, reading material and notes teared me apart and scattered me into pieces.  They chewed me up and spit me out.  
I stayed up late to review all my notes for the several tests on the nest day, however, I don't think I did them very well. Every time when I clicked the Grade Book section on RenWeb, my hands shivered and my heart palpitated with fear and stress. Some of the grades might be acceptable to others, but they brought a great deal of disappointment to me. These courses were much more challenging than I've thought about. Some people said I'm too pessimistic. As a matter of fact, sometimes optimism is just a big lie. The best way to deal with it is to strive to solve the problems and improve oneself. All these things happened this week reminded me lyrics of a song. "I'm a silhouette, chasing rainbows on my own. The more try to move on, the more I feel alone." I'm going to take a good rest this weekend and be prepared for the next week's study. Cross my finger for myself...

It has been nearly a month since I arrived in America, the big melting pot. This mysterious democratic country gave me a huge unforgettable impression and amazed me in so many ways. When I walked in the street, I could smell the fragrance of diversified cultures and felt their steady footstep towards future. The warm words, the polite gestures, the confident smells, everything seems to be so soothing and wonderful. The Webb School is even better. There is a marvellous campus, incredible curriculums, considerate dorm parents, etc. These elements made me feel not homesick at all. Instead of that, I found that this was a place for me to achieve my goal and create a better life. Well, maybe this is also related to my characteristics. Independence, that's what I have been trying to get. These days, I had pretty much a basic understanding of United States, which kept me thinking about the differences between American and Chinese, which is a complex question that includes social systems, politics, education, population.etc. It's a little bit earlier for a student at my age to figure it out. But experiencing two completely different things is awesome and exciting. Therefore, I'm going to dig hard and study effectively. I hope I will have four fruitful years here.

That's my first blog. I'm open to any comment, but please not too harsh.